Wow 2 years almost to the month. Insanity or maybe stress, follows all kind of cycles. Some we realize, some sneak up on us. Do we always follow full circle? Is it karma or fate or some kind of congruent triangle that sneaks on us. My daughter is now 7 almost 8 she speaks in math phrases of symmetry and congruency and laughs when I have to google them. She teaches me the hand slaps and rhymes of youth. "Brick wall waterfall, you think you got it all" poof attitude.. so much the same of my childhood yet so similar. Miss mary mack mack mack all dressed in Black black black.. yet still the same fears, how to fit in BFF's and now moving. Yes, the child of 4M's in 5 yrs is moving again. to an" I "state. The smooth family life will transition to Dad being the 8 am to 7 pm dad. Mom being the rest. I love being the "Be all Fun all" for her. the one who talks her through her fears of her first play. Bringing her her first dozen roses. ( trader joes) but still. Crying tears of joy and pride because she was so brave just to get up and do her part. I miss her dad who is working so hard to put a roof over our heads. I love the dad that he is. He misses it as well. I see that he doesn't know how to fit back in after he has been gone. It's so hard to make him feel like he never left. We know why he has gone. We have made a system to make the time go by. We count the days but as they go it is harder to fit him back in. No fault of his own. Thank you Darling for all that you do.